Evolutionary Ps…

annex50 — Sun, 23 Oct 2011 10:20:58 +0000

Evolutionary Psychology. Why are we, as a collective unit, doing what we do? To figure out why segmented groups do what they do in the present is not that hard to figure out. Walk your downtown streets. Sit in a corner. Watch what “they” do. You can figure it out. But, why are “we” the dominant species? Why do we feed the dominant organism that is Earth? Why are we the brain? What may your cells think in your brain? God is a concept beyond you. We think we are a concept beyond Earth. How does Earth feel when it looks upon the “Sun?”

Left. Right. Le…

annex50 — Sun, 23 Oct 2011 10:17:44 +0000

Left. Right. Left. Right. My ears. My head wants to attune to the words. One way and the other. The center is within my grasp. I am the force fighting.

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annex50 — Sun, 23 Oct 2011 10:16:56 +0000

My life in lyrics, finally. :o)

annex50 — Tue, 16 Aug 2011 08:45:11 +0000

Broken like a crooked smile
A little hunched over but I walked that mile
I’ve woken from a fuzzy dream
You never would believe the things that I have seen

Don’t you feel sorry for me
‘Cause I’m right where the universe wants me to be
A lesson that I needed to learn
But that doesn’t mean that it doesn’t burn

Don’t you feel sorry
Don’t you feel sorry
Don’t you feel sorry for me
‘Cause I won’t change my story
Don’t take all my glory
Don’t you feel sorry for me

Tied up with leather and rope
A little bit of medicine to give me hope
I’m inky like a smoking gun
It’s gonna take a while to heal the damage done

Don’t you feel sorry for me
‘Cause I’m right where the universe wants me to be
A lesson that I needed to learn (A lesson that I needed to learn)
But that doesn’t mean that it doesn’t burn

Don’t you feel sorry
Don’t you feel sorry
Don’t you feel sorry for me
‘Cause I won’t change my story
Don’t take all my glory
Don’t you feel sorry for me

(A lesson that I needed to learn)
No pain, no gain, no defective parts
No dirty business, no forgiveness, no broken heart

(Don’t you feel sorry)

Don’t you feel sorry
Don’t you feel sorry
Don’t you feel sorry for me
‘Cause I won’t change my story
Don’t take all my glory
Don’t you feel sorry for me

I am so digging

annex50 — Sat, 06 Aug 2011 10:28:43 +0000

I don’t take life serious
for a lot of reasons.

My grandma had an “out of body” experience recently.

She recalled seeing her body and the hazy bodies standing up doing things that she could not recollect even at the moment

Her heart stopped. They were working for her to stay
alive.

She signed a DNR after that.

Do not resuscitate.

After, of course, she came to.

They gave her 2-5 months.

Unless she had heart surgery.
My mom was faced with that 24 years ago,
but technology has(d) come so far.

Same rhythm.

Don’t miss a beat

now

did not matter.

I’m in a fuss anyway.

Cross me once

me twice

the charm is

that it provokes my fire.

I love the beat,
but not the process.

Call me

crazy to the death.

I say soon, you say the burn is brighter.

I’m not for poetry anyway.

When she had her liiiiiiiiiiiiiine,
she remembered feeling
at peace.

Was that spiritual or scientific?
I doubt it matters.
I understand why she signed the DNR.
She didn’t want to be in a wheelchair with others
taking care of her. She wanted to give give
until she gave
a burden.

Not for her, not for me either.

It’s not about me,
but it is.

They approved

of her decision

to her living daughter.
She’s 82.

I say fuck it.

Age is cruel.

My heart won’t stop.
I wish it would.

For Kris, we saw this live…. hehe

annex50 — Sat, 06 Aug 2011 10:00:34 +0000

My only Rager Madonna song, forget the video…

annex50 — Sat, 06 Aug 2011 09:31:55 +0000

Hurting to this song

annex50 — Sat, 06 Aug 2011 08:00:38 +0000

“Nothing equals nothing.” It’s too much of how I live. Yet, without my Grandma and Janet, I would really be nothing.

I promise

annex50 — Sat, 06 Aug 2011 04:28:29 +0000

When you go, I go.

Concatenation

annex50 — Mon, 01 Aug 2011 09:37:38 +0000

I felt compelled to condense my previous posts in a more direct manner:

I feel what I do is not translating.

I have learned a lot and try to live in accordance with that change. However, I feel like it is not noticed, and therefore not validated. Have I come so far? Have I wasted my time?